Wednesday, November 19, 2008

"There's nothing like your first"

Those were the words spoken to me by a sweet woman with tears in her eyes when I was 8 months pregnant with Rachel. I've tried to take these words to heart and make the most of the time I have with Rachel. I am so excited to have another baby girl, but with that comes the realization that it's no longer going to be just Rachel and me. The past 2 1/2 years have been amazing. There's been happy times, frustrating times, laughter, tears of joy, tears of sadness, moments of doubt, memories made, etc... It's been quite the journey. And as we prepare for this new little girl to enter our family, I can't help but think back on all the one-on-one time I've had with Rachel. It's too bad that once Rachel is grown she won't remember the time she had with just me. But I know that the time she's had with just me, has helped her become and will continue to help her become the person she will be. There's definitely lots I've forgotten over the past 2 1/2 years, but there are also a lot of things I remember. I remember the first time I held her, the first time she slept through the night, the first time she was sick, the first time I left her with someone besides Andy, the first time she crawled, etc... The list could go on. I've been so fortunate to be there for most of her firsts. It will be interesting to see how the next couple months go and how we all adjust to the changes. I am so grateful for Rachel and that she is the one that made me a mom.

6 comments:

Neilson Family said...

I remember feeling the same way when I was about to have my second. I had such a special relationship with Trevor and didn't want anyone or anything taking that away from me. Looking back now, and 5 kids later, its amazing how your capability to love increases. But you'll always have that time spent and relationship with your first child that no one can take away. Good luck with #2. I'm sure she'll be a doll!

The Lunds said...

So true. I am having the same feelings. I can't believe I only have about 5 days of just Hayden and I. I am excited to love another just the same but it's so hard to imagine. The first is pretty special though! Good luck.

Cristy said...

Wow! Such cute pics! I scrolled down a bit before I -read- your post and the first pic I saw was you holding a baby in the hospital! There was an audilbe GASP and then I read quickly!!! Whew! It was Rachel!!!! ;)
So...looking at all those pics - I think Rachel and Ashlyn look A LOT alike!!!!!
I'm sure they will be two peas in a pod in a few months! We can't wait! Only 114 days!

Dave/Sherry said...

We remember the excitement we felt when Rachel arrived in the pink stroller at the New Zealand airport and then the excitement of seeing her in Amsterdam. She was managed so well in her travels to New Zealand, England and Scotland. We appreciate inviting us to have those memories with your family. We only regret that we are not living minutes away that there can be more spontaneous visiting and a little grandparent sitting. We look forward to March to watch Rachel play with her cousins and cuddle our newest granddaughter.

Claire said...

It's so true--there is nothing like your first. Each child comes with their own unique talents and personality and all this contributes to a better, more enriching life. I too, felt sad when I knew my alone days with Savannah were coming to an end. Your capacity to love miraculously increases and you'll find yourself thinking that life has just become even more perfect!

Chris and Sally said...

I remember Chris and I taking Kate out to Wendy's (her favorite) the night before I was induced with Peyton and I cried the whole time. I knew my life and her life would never be the same. I couldn't imagine how I could love someone as much as I loved her but then you hold your new baby for the first time and you can't imagine your life without them.
Rachel is a doll.